The plus size debate hits home.

Hey,
        So I know alot of you will be aware that especially in the UK there is a massive debate on as to if the words "Plus Size" should be banned, as you may or may not know I am a "plus size" girl, but then I think most women these days are plus size as, while researching plus size brackets this morning I was horrified  to find that most online shops I visited started plus size ranges for women's UK size 14's. Let me tell you I would kill to be a size 14 instead of the size I am!!

I don't find the words plus size offensive infact I couldn't care less what bracket i get put in i'm fat I know I am, I dislike being fat so I am doing something about it, what I do Despise is that shops have such massive differences in sizing, I range in 3 dress size bracket's depending on what shop I am in or ordering from, I also despise that because I am a plus size that 90% of the clothes available are either,
A) Black
B) Gran's curtain floral
C) 40's- 50's style rocker skirts
D) Just plain frumpy
E) Way too expensive

I want to be able to know what size I actually am because my body doesn't change 2 dress size's by walking two minutes to a different shop, I also want fashionable clothing, i'm 25 and i'd like to dress my age not have to dress in clothing to suit me in ten years time.

I also have a difficult Bra size and because of that I have to spend a fortune on decent Bra's or just bare bad fitting decent priced ones. I'm pissed off with being put in a bracket where you have to spend a fortune to clothe yourself and where you never know what size you truly are!

And for those reading this thinking well do something about your weight, I am, I hate being the size (size's) that I am, I hate having nothing nice to wear but it took me a long time to gain the weight I did and it will take a long time to get it off again so in that time i'd like to feel nice about myself and with the range available at the moment I don't feel that's possible for me and that's what pisses me off.

Dirty people.

Hi, so I know I have OCD so I see clean and dirty (among other things) differently to "normal" people BUT, it drives me crazy when people are just filthy through pure laziness. People will say things like "Oh I just don't have time" or "It will keep till tomorrow." I'm sorry? you don't have 2 minutes to run a hoover round and spray some air freshener? and its your it will keep attitude that now has 20+ years worth of filth built up in your house! It angers me so much as to how people can just wallow in their own filth and give excuse after excuse as to why they haven't cleaned it, either admit you are a lazy fat ass and cant be bothered to clean up after yourself or just shut up about it. There are few people that really bother me in life but people that come near me or my home, reeking of their own piss and smelling like they haven't bathed in the past 20 years plus is just un- acceptable. Sorry I dont really have much to say about it other than pick up a disinfectant wipe and a hoover and clean your house's you scummy buggers!!

Insomnia, my point of veiw.

Ok again it's been a while, I don't like feeling pressure to do anything. I blog when I want to or when there is something to blog about.  Right now I'm blogging because it's 2:48am and I honestly cannot remember the last time I had a decent nights sleep and that is NOT ok.  I was diagnosed with insomnia many a moon ago (see what I did there) and I was prescribed some little green pills that knocked me out, I stopped taking them after a while because I hated feeling like a zombie all the time,  and the irony of that is not lost on me because I also feel like a zombie without Mr knock you out pills. But I'm a Mum and Steve (my long-term boyfriend ) is diabetic so I need to be awares of our child and him incase anything goes wrong so no pills, so what am I to do I have tried meditation, Hypnotherapy,  cutting out caffeine etc, etc, I'm at my whits end. And of course my fellow insomniacs will get this as probably women in general, when you are tired but your mind won't switch off you think and think and over think.

Thoughts in my mind right now:
* Did I just hear a noise
* Oh it was just the cat.... I think, please be just the cat
* Am I really hearing noises or is my mind playing tricks on me?
* Should I go check out noise or wake Steve and make him check it out?
* Noise stopped? Must of been cat
* I've got so Much to do before the school term starts again argh
* My son is five, I'm the mother of a five year old, when the he'll did that happen?
* Am I a good Mum?
* Do they know I love them? Do I tell them enough?
* Why did I have to go through the hell I did before finding Steve?
* Argh stupid auto correct
* My tummy is growling so much right now
* Why do I feel so alone?
* Ahh look at Steve sleeping, smug little fucker
* I love him really I'm just tired
* Only a couple of hours before little dude is out of bed is there any point in sleeping now?
* I really am tired so why don't I sleep?

And many, many more believe me.

Someone once asked me if insomnia is like the narrator from Fight club describes it,  I said no,  they asked why, I replied "Because he is fictional and I am not." The truth is, and this is from my experience,  insomnia is dirty, you hear your stomach digest what you have eaten, you feel your mouth and the back of your throat get dryer and dryer. You feel your eyes turn
from eyes to dry scratchy balls in your skull, you hear your blood pumping around you as you lay in damnation wishing, willing your eyes to droop and close and for sleep to overcome you in black night, you hear noises that don't exist, you hear that stupid buzz,  ring sound in your ear and out WON'T go away.

It's now 3:23am, I could carry on about how insomnia makes me feel and maybe I will another night but for now...

Bye.

Update.

Hey, so I know I haven't posted in over a week, I am working on a couple of projects at the moment and that means that I am not buying any new products to test. So all in all Not a very pleasing couple of weeks because I just want to buy new collections that are coming out. On the plus side we are getting a Kitten soon eeek.

Will keep you updated as things go. Bye x

MaXfactor Colour Elixir Giant pen stick, FoxyAmber- Foxy indeed.

So you may remember me mentioning in my Birthday haul http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHbgq9lLhl0
This giant pen stick from Maxfactor you may note that I was unsure on the colour and the use of this product, well although I still have not figured out how on earth to sharpen this product, I have figured that I am in love with the colour and formulation. Colour wise its a coral pink/orange/red (great colour description i know) its pink in some light then an orangy pink in others with just a hint of red, I LOVRVE IT! As for formulation its almost a buildable stain stick, it can go on sheer and the more you apply the more opaque it becomes, its very glossy not sticky just beautiful and has me wanting to buy more shades, Give it a try and let me know what you think. x

Maxfactor colour elixir giant pen stick in Foxy Amber 25

Two very different nail polish's one review.

I think I have found the best brown ever!

So let me talk to you about MaxFactor Max effect mini nail polish in 26 Cappuccino, I can say with massive confidence I love this nail varnish. (Ah swoon.) Let me say I have tried so many taupes and chocolate browns trying to find one I like and had no success until now! 

This polish is a Mauve chocolatey brown and it is DEVINE. These nail varnish's retail at £3.99 and come in a fantastic variety of shades and finishes, Metallics, pastels, high gloss and cream finish's are the tip of the nail. (Excuse the pun.) I am currently wearing Cappuccino on my toe nails (warning foot photo's to come.) And I love it, because of the mauve undertone I feel it will suit all skin tones, the formulation is lovely, dries so quickly and heck is it hard to chip, lets just say I have a habit of stubbing my toes and getting them stuck under heavy objects and still this nail varnish stays WITHOUT a top coat! Its devine I love it. 

Beautiful right?

L'Oreal Colour Riche.

This one I have in Lush Tangerine, and I have no idea what to say about this, so lets start with the basics, it retails at £4.99  the formulation is a little sticky to work with, in the bottle this orange looks like a powder orange but it comes onto the nails ALOT brighter (this is not a problem to me because I like it all the same.) I was just hoping for a pastel orange. Drying time took too long for me and even after 2 hours of sat waiting to dry I altered my top and hello smudging also even after they felt completely dry and I went to bed they were not as I have my beddings fabric print in my nails (new trend? I think not.) Overall nice colour but nothing makes me want to re use or re purchases.

Thanks for taking the time to read this, have any of you got these varnish's and want to comment? 

Large Nail Polish Haul, L'oreal, Maxfactor and Maybelline.

So I might be growing an obsession to nail polish:

I recently purchased a few nail varnishes and thought I would share them with you.

From L-R, L'oreal colour riche 303. Lush Tangerine, Maxfactor Max effect mini nail polish's in 26 Cappuccino, 28 Pretty in Pink, 27 Cool Jade, 10 Deep Coral, 35 Candy Blue. Maybelline colour show in, 130 Winter Baby, 352 Downtown Red, 15 Candy Apple, 341 Orange Attack, 554 Lavender Lies, 654 Superpower Blue, 103 Marinho and finally 104 Noite de Gal.

I have not had the pleasure of trying all of these nail varnish's yet (I am painting my nails every two days to get use of them all.) 

Reviews and swatches to follow.